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Tiga Belas... Dear blogity blog...
Do dreams really mean??? Have you ever try to figure out what's your dreams mean? Probably you'll say that dreams are meaningless or maybe you are just fall asleep. I'll say that dreams make me become more liveliness when you start to have those colorful and beautiful things and it's like a real things happened in front of you. (Not including the nightmare version. Heh) To interpret dreams sometimes might be nonsense. But it's fun. I love to explore the wonders of my dreams. Perhaps it's give me more strength to live in this world. Yet, I'm not depending on my dreams to be happy in life. I have dreams that I want it to become true, and life is what I create of it. I often get dreams that reflect my life concerns. So, it's that supposed to tell me that dreams are telling me the future? Hahaha… Sometimes I do wake up in sweats or I'm like shouting. Why is that??? Ngah3. The dejavu.. is really freaky. Having an event that seems you already seen or dreamed of..... You see. Dreams are funny things. =P Sometimes my wishes didn't come true. So I always imagine my wishes to become reality in my dreams. Hahaha. So, it's definitely possible. Really. I was dreaming about me being a successful woman and driving a nice car, living in a big nice house or something. And the worst part I also sometimes dream about my ex-boyfriend getting back together. Ngeh3. I would say that my dreams will come true with only I work out to attain my dreams. My dreams are showing my possibilities, and I have the choice, right now, to work towards them if I choose. I'm only 23. Start living life.
Dua belas...
Dear blogity blog...
YOYO. BUNCAI. PUTEH. Ngoook betul. 3˛ ekor hilang. Ntah kemane.... OIIIIIIIIIIIII! BALIK LAH!  In the mood untuk mandikan depa* Dont bother
Sebelas... Dear blogity blog...
Im BACK!!! What should I write about? Hmm... Just back from Bedok. Stayed at my kazens house. Luckly still got relatives there-lah! Kalau tak... Dekat orhid road pun ada jugak. I did little for shopping. Off course we all know S'pore is a heaven for shopping. I was kinda excited to see all the bags and the clothes. But no cheap prices. Damn!The city area compare to KL, punyalah jauh beze. Much clean and I will say that KL people should learn from them. Hahah. I was totally trill actually to go alone. Most of the time I do is spent my time at coffee shops although I dont like coffee. Heh. I also discovering all the foods that I can eat and I enjoying my reading. Orang budget lah katekan. Hehehe. I dnt hav much time to do walking around the cities. But still I enjoyed it. So nexttttt.......... vacation??? 
Sepuluh... Dear blogity blog Sorry for havent written in a while. I been busy at work. Seems like I cant keep up with everything around me. So many thing to do. So little time. Haila.. So here we are. Its April already. Time is flying. My personal life is looking up. I think... I should go for a vacation, and I am looking forward for that. Hum.. Hum.. To be sure, I'm feeling blue. Too much work to do, too much things to think, and I need something to pull me out of it. Nothing sounds good. I seriously need a vacation. Where to go? Well.. really i'm having a hard time lately. I have to force myself to do anything. And I hate when I started to blame myself. You know. Pelupe. Masuk telinga kiri keluar telinga kanan. Mude2 lagi dah pelupe... Am I sick? hahah! Im tired of it. Im tired of talking about it. Im tired of dealing with it. Im tired of being let on and then led off. Especially tired of meeting all of those suckas, mackdaddies and wanna-be's. Im tired of lusting and not loving  I AM lovesick and tired of looking for love in all the wrong places. Im tired of trying to be turned on and then always ending up turned off. Turned onn. Put off. Put out. Fed up! :)) Hahah!Thats life! Two words I use when life throws those negative things at me. Whether for it hepls me to stay focus on the positive things or not. Life.. for what it is, that come our way. I have to be sabaree and accept it. Tired? No such word. Thats is life. I wish it would be nice if life will always throws nice things and when I have problems, I accepting those. It is those bad situations I seems to have problems and that I have a problem in accepting. Complicated kan? Hahah! This is what happen when you kurang berdoa :P I wished I could travel to Mekkah. A very such peaceful place. Boleh berdoa banyak2. Mintak dipermudahkan segala urusan. Mintak ditenangkan hati hati ini. Mintak sihat walafiat. Mintak macam2. Heh... I really looking forward for this trip. I have heard stories and my family experience that whoever prays there, Allah will answer your prayers. Insya'Allah. Dengan izin-Nya. Okey. Ni yang bertambah guwa nak kerja kuat ni. Kumpul duit banyak2 yoo!. Hakhakha. oKlah. Im sorry for being such a emo person. I appologies to those who do enjoy my blogs. Reading my emo story. I pray that Allah will guide me, you, have mercy on me on you, pray that more each day will recite "ashaduAllahilaHaillah", because this is the truth! Allah is great. Allah knows best.  Ciowlo  +still on jiwang mode for some reason+
Sembilan... Dear blogity blog...
Lama dah tak menulis. Sebok. 2 minggu sudah aku berkerja balik. Memulakan semula rutin harian aku. Sebagai kuli... Jiwa aku bermain tanda tanya. 2 - 3 hari ni, aku dapat rasa macam ada sesuatu yang tak kena. Haih. Kemudian aku dapat berita yang sungguh mengecewakan aku. Kecewa lagi... Kali ni sungguh kecewa. Air mata terus bercucuran membasahi pipi. Kecewa. Yer. Setelah beberapa kali kecewa dalam hidup. Kecewa dengan diri sendiri. Aku kecewa lagi. Dan terus dibuai perasaan kecewa. Kali ni. Memang aku tak dapat menahan perasaan sedih. Sejak aku keluar hospital haritu. Aku terus simpan perasaan kecewa aku. Aku pendam perasaan itu. Sebab aku tak mahu terus menerus dengan perasaan kecewa. Kapal terbang singgah di awan gelap. "awak buat apa dekat klia?" "saya tengok kapal terbang. saya tunggu awak balik" Air mata terus mengalir. Tersedu2 aku menangis kali ni. Maaflah. Aku tak dapat tahan lagi perasaan sedih tu. Sebagai hamba aku juga manusia biasa yang punya hati dan perasaan. Apalagi aku perempuan yang cepat tersentuh hatinya. Penantian aku selama ini. Semuanya tak menjanjikan apa2. Aku yang masih terus berharap. Terus dibuai perasaan itu. Leka sejenak. Lupa tentang apa yang ada di sekeliling. Pegangan agamanya yang tinggi membuatkan aku mengkagumi dia. Aku mengharapkan padanya agar dia lah yang membimbing aku. Membawa aku ke sinar kebahagian. . Ustaz Aidil . . Tapi mungkinkah aku yang silap ++jiwang mode++
Lapan... Dear blogity blog.
13 March yang lepas, hari jadi aku. 23 tahun. Huhu. Hmm, mulanya aku agak takde mood jugak. Sebab, hari-hari yang lain sama macam hari tu jugak. Takda yang beza. Aku lepak rumah, makan,minum,bace buku,tido. Bosan. Ramai jugak yang wished aku. Tepat pukul 12am, nadiah dah wished. Haha. Appreciate that. Kawan2 yang lain pun. Kazens, auntys aku pun ramai yang wished. Aku rasa agak lain jugak la. Since birthday this time terasa ramai yang macam extra concern. Agak2, boleh dapat agak tak? Haha. What-ever ler. Mama belikan aku kek. Suprise2. Haha. Aku bukak pintu sambil kaver senyum. Buat muke ketak. Kekeke. Sebenarnye, seronok gile bile mama beli kek. Malam tu kiteorang pun celebrate satu family. Mama masak special. Makang3. Sampai perot buncit. 14hb March. Aku ada appointment dengan doctor Rahmah. Suppose pagi. Tapi nurse bengong tulis petang. So, the day yang sepatutnye aku di-review oleh doctor rahmah, terpakse ganti dengan doctor Cipto. Kehkehkeh. Doctor laki. Nak tak nak, aku terpakse meng-open-minded-kan otak aku. Kalau tak macam mana nak pastikan yang aku dah sihat ke tak. Supposely, mc aku dipanjangkan lagi 2 weeks. Tapi tak boleh blah punya pasal, aku cakap aku nak kerja. Bosan duduk rumah. Sakit otak. Tepu. Tak cergas. Haha. Die pun cakap la aku kene ambil lagi injection. Friday depan... Aku nak jugak kerja! Seb baiklah die benarkan. Malehla aku nak cakap apa yang doctor cakap yesterday. Malas. Nanti semua orang pun, "kesian suraya"... "suraya, u take care urself"... "suraya wish u happy and get healthy". Hahaha. I know they'r all very concerned bout me. Tapi aku rasa cam aku dah menyusahkan semua orang. Yer... seriously. Macam useless pun ada jugak. 15hb March. Aku dok umah. Goyang kaki. Makan kek yang tak habis2 dari haritu. Makan aiskrim. Makan jung-food. Hahaha. Semuanya makanan berkolestrol tinggi. Bukannye ape. Nanti dah start kerja tak boleh nak feel the enjoyment of lepaking rumah lagi. Ngah3. Oklah. Just to filled up this blog. Roger and out bebeh =)
Tujuh... Dear blogity blog...
Today is Sunday. But well stayed at home. Got one more week before I start back to work. I dont know whether I should be happy or what? Muahaha! I can't say its fun, cause there were times that works is sucked :p I can't say its bored, cause there were times that works is good. Mentally and physically. Tak kerja otak "lembab" la. So, everage-la. Haha. -- National Election Time -- Proud to say that I go for election yesterday. Wuhu! I believe that Im a good malaysia citizen. Yes! Me and family get excited when it's time to vote. And this election is very important. Like what my dad said "If you dont vote, dont complaint". "WE" all have to do our part. It is important for us to take our civic responsibility seriously. Do it for Malaysia. Do it for Tanah Melayu. Do it for Melayu people. Do it for "takkan melayu hilang di dunia". Peh! Serious-ly. I dont understand people which is my frens who keeps complaining, saying that * "333 pegang KEDAH? - so no bikini girls on motorbike, hot hunkies at Langkawi" * "FUCK! 333 pegang shah alam. Damnit!" * "DAP take over most of major cities in malaysia" plus bla bla bla. When I asked them back, "did u go for voting?" They say... * "tak!" * "tak sempat register" * "busy banyak kerja" * "ala.. maleh la" Ape kejadahnya? Sebagai belia kita-lah yang bakal mencorakkan negara. Jangan sampai negara kita jadi macam negara seberang bila "melayu langsung tak boleh berkata apa". Masa itu... Menyesal pun tak sudah. Bagi aku. Kan bagus, kalau kita semua bersatu. Masing2 punya speciality masing2. Kemajuan, agama berjalan seiring. Tak perlu gaduh2. Tak perlu busuk hati. Sekarang ni pun, dah nampak. Perak? Penang? Adoilahai. Apa sudah jadi? Mananya orang Melayu? Takkan la... Election? Bergaduh... Baling batu... Maki hamun. Wahaila kamu. kamu. dan kamu semua. Islam itu indah. Jangan sampai terkeluar pepatah melayu "bodoh sombong"- ler!. Bila orang puteh kata islam "terrorist" marah la plak. Tapi kamu pulak yang tunjuk contoh yang tak baik. Relax. Take it easy. Mengundi saja mana yang rasa patut di undi. Tak perlu la buat kecoh-hal benda yang remeh dan memalukan agama. Isk isk... Kalau nak cakap benda-benda camni. Kenalah tapis. Nanti tak pasal aku pulak yang kene masuk jail. Ganti? Tuuut. Hehehe. Apa2pun. Kakak aku nurul izzah menang yay! Muahahaha!
Enam... Dear blogity blog,
Hum. Semalam terbantut nak menulis. Kerkerker. Well, harini, terasa nak menulis lagi. Since aku terasa penat pulak bace buku yang jen kasi. Sampai 3 buah buku and 3 majalah. Sekarang ni, aku sedang baca "The Solitaire Mystery". Buku yang mengisahkan perjalanan seorang anak yang mencarik ibu dia yang hilang sejak berumur 4 tahun lagi. Alasan ibu dia menghilangkan diri pulak sebab nak mencari siapa diri dia sebenarnye dan ingin terus berjaya dalam bidang modelling. Hailaa... Kenapa solitaire? Ape kene mengena dengan solitaire?. Mulanya buku ni agak membosankan. Macam tak kene tajuk. Rupanya sebab ayah die minat gile dengan "joker". So everytime ayah die beli satu set solitaire tu, ayah dia akan ambil "joker" ... and the rest bagi kat budak kecik tu. Dan sepanjang perjalanan mencarik ibu die yang bengong tu, budak kecik ni gunakan kad2 tu untuk membantu dia membuat penyelesaian atas kehilangan ibu dia. Oh! Aku tak minat dengan buku camni. Sebab. Buku ni buat aku kene pikir masalah dia. Kakaka. Tapi! Bace je lah. Demi menjaga hati seorang kawan yang bernama Jen. Jen tak tau pasal blog aku. Tapi kan. Ada satu part yang aku suke. Budak kecik tu kate kan... "the more beautiful woman is, the more difficulty she has finding herself". Betul jugakkan? Dan sebagai manusia, kite susah nak berpuas hati dengan apa yang kita ada. Tapi. Siapa yang tak nak cantik?. Dalam dunia ni semua orang pun nak cantik. Lebih2 lagi perempuan. Islam pulak menuntut kesederhanaan. Jangan lebih2. Jangan menonjol2. Aku? Kekeke. What you see is what you get. Paham tak??? Lelaki sekarang. Hum. Musti nak perempuan yang cantikkan. Kalau boleh cantik macam super model. Tapi ada jugak yang lebih pada sedap mata memandang janji baik. Hahaha. Bagi aku. Memanglah takda yang perfecto! Dan. Bagi aku. Seorang lelaki yang berwawasan tinggi, matang takkan membawa kekasihnye ke dalam lembah kemaksiatan. Paham tak? Hahaha. Cinta? Apa sebenarnye maksud cinta? Kadang2 borak dalam internet pun boleh terbibit perasaan cinta. Hahaha. Maaaacam ??? Ahaks. Zaman skarang ni. Perempuan pun boleh mengorat lelaki. Hahaha. Kalau aku... takda maknenyelah. Baik aku simpan dalam perasaan tu. Sekalik kene reject malu woo. Sebenarnye, aku baru tengok gambar kawan aku baru kawen. Bila aku tengok dia kan.. Aihhh. Muda lagi dah kawen. 22. Dengar cerite tengah pregnant. Wes! Nanti anak dah beso mak mude je lagi. Kakaka. Seronok sebenarnye. Kebahagian. Bahagia tu terletak pada rupa paras ker? Yer ar... Tak cantik siapa nak? Hahaha. Tapi! Orang kata. Rupa paras tak menjamin kebahagian seseorang. Isk boleh pakai ke tu??? Hahaha. Tapi aku percaya la " orang yang baik. tentu akan ditemukan dengan orang yang baik ". Masalahnye sekarang aku tak baik. Tapi aku nak orang yang baik supaya dapat mendidik aku menjadi baik. Kakaka. Paham tak? Hahaha. Zaman sekarang ni susah lah. Susah.... Kenapa aku terpikir sampai camni sekalik ek? Hahaha. Sebab aku baca buku bermasalah tu. "The solitaire mystery". Malas betul nak habiskan. Ahhhhh!!! Anyway...Perluke ada istilah "go with the flow" ??? Wakakaka. Im off blogity blog.
Lima... Dear blog,
I write this to you out of concern. I apologize for writing and not speaking to you face-to-face. All I want to say here is that there is a lot of things I want to spill out. But the words didnt come out. Why is that? Kahkahkah. Gile... *Currently im in the mood of jiwang* Maybe it's because I'm in a heightened emotional state with the sakit Im having now. It's making me feel worse about myself. It's making me sad. Why would I want that to happen? Hailaa... Im turning 23 next week. Kahkahkah. Announce awal. And I'm feeling getting old. What do I wish? What do i want for a present? Oh! so nice if you to ask. Kehkehkeh. No-lah. No need to get me anything. Main2 aje. Tapi kalau ada ok jugak. Harharhar. Isk. time aku nk blogging time tuh la mak aku panggil makan. Makang3. continue later. Tchuss.
Empat... Dear blogity blog...
Hum. My current location is M in my room. Harharhar.. Its shit boring. Coz, none of my frenz living here. M soOo far away from everyone. Tambah when it comes to weekends, I get very lonely and sad. So now, takmau look forward to weekend anymore, coz most of the time i do is day dreaming. Ngeh3. Anyway, I love this video clip. Enjoy it! Im Off blogity blog =D
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